She is growing up too fast. Showing advances every day that I am not ready to see. Wanting to be big like her sisters while I pray she stays small like I see her in my mind.
Morphing to a toddler before my eyes, she now says words I can understand, runs with her sisters, and pretends to use the potty.
All good things – if I wanted her to grow.
But when I want her small, so that she can continue to fit perfectly in the curl of my arm, the denial of her maturity can run rampant. When I know that her little head won’t bury perfectly in my neck, and her hands will grab my palm, instead of my finger, how do I keep a tear from falling?
What will I do without a baby? I’ve had nothing but babies for a while now. How will I adjust to the permanent change of the adjective from “baby girl” to “little girl”? And the reality that there will be no more babies for us?
It is a bittersweet truth that children will grow. That they will learn and develop aspirations and goals. And, as a mother, I should take pride in every accomplishment. Boastfully display any skill that may be new or exciting for them.
But I don’t want to. For some reason, I do not want my third one to grow. I want her a baby forever – or at least a little longer. So I can drink her in more. Implant more of this time in my memory. Take more pictures. Laugh more at her antics. Learn more from her innocence.
And when she comes out of her sister’s room, having freely enjoyed her exploring without being told to leave because they are in preschool, and I see that she is wearing heels… Cinderella blue ones… I don’t want to immediately think, “this is too fast”. I want to think… “Wow, how cute!”
And I don’t want my heart to lodge in my throat… knowing she is growing up too fast.
Precious! I'm sure you are treasuring these moments in your heart.
I know how you feel! I only have one daughter, but it seems everyday that she is growing up WAY to fast. She is three and it seems just like yesterday I was sooo excitedly awaiting her arrival. It would be nice to have a pause button to enjoy them as little ones just a little longer!
Oh how I miss that funny stuff! I can remember how hard dh and I laughed at our firstborn walking around in dh's shoes way back 40 years ago. Enjoy this time.
I know what you mean. The other day nut son demanded what he was going to wear and while it was cute…I was sad knowing that he is growing up…and fast.
I don't want my baby girl to grow up!
Lori, she has gotten so big! I really miss seeing the family =( always remember though that they will ALWAYS be your baby girls. I am all grown and my mom still calls me her baby girl because even though I have become a young adult, she always sees the little girl in me =) I hope to be able to escape from school soon & see yall. As always, in my prayers <3
As my baby girl is also our last, I find myself feeling the same way about her milestones. In fact, Monday's post pretty much talks about the same things you did. I'll just give you the link rather than repeat it all here.
thank you for stopping by my blog today. Her coming out in the shoes is so adorable! Even if it does mean that she's a tiny bit older now.
It's hard when you realize that your children have to grow up so they can lead their own life :-)Following from Thursday Friend Cafe- hope to see you by my place soon!
now I'm tearing up!! They do grow up too fast…
I know my boys are growing up so fast,and she is to cute.
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Your daughter is adorable. Yes they grow too fast. My oldest is 22, my middle guy will be 18 tomorrow and the lil one will be 5 next month. I have been blessed with all 3, the lil one was a great surprise to me, my husband, and my dr, who told me 17 years ago that I was no longer able to conceive. He keeps us all young. I do look at him at times and then the older two and realize no matter how I try, he will be a young man someday and "mommy" will turn into "ma". So all we can do is cherish each second and take many..many pictures..