Good Morning All!
I am trying not to be frustrated this morning. Trying not to berate myself for going out last night, finally on a night out on my own with a friend, and having 2 glasses of wine, Crusted Sole with Spinach Orzo, and Chocolate Cake with Ganache and Hazelnuts on top. And eating every single bite.
I am trying no to be upset that I, admittedly, did not peruse a healthy week this week. That I told myself I could take last weekend “off” and the excuses would not bleed into the week.
I am trying to understand that losing weight is a battle. And that the losing part is pretty easy, but the mental part is the hardest demon I have ever battled.
And now, weighing in the morning at 165 even – a total gain of 1.7 pounds this week, I am trying to tell myself that it should not bother me that, in two weeks, I have gained back 2.5 hard earned lost pounds… just like that.
So, I recommit. With 44 weeks to go and now 37 pounds to lose, I am quickly boxing myself in a corner. And people who are in corners tend to retaliate and bunk the status quo. So, in my mind, I know that if I do not stay ahead of the weeks, I will lose this game and be here next year, trying the same challenge, praying that this time it works.
And losing my own self respect, and yours as well.
THAT does not make me happy.
So – this is it. The end of the line – again. I will get back to it from day 1 this week. Today.
It has to be done! Excuses will only lead to failure, but determination will lead to certain success!
I hope your weeks were better!
Let’s go week 44!!!!!
A couple of years ago, I lost 84 pounds. I have since gained back about 40 of that. Last week I really started eating right and going back to the gym. I know what I need to do. I'm not going to sit around and feel bad about those 40 pounds. We can do it! Pick yourself up, dust yourself off, and keep on going! Have a great weekend.
Hi, I'm a new follower from the weekend blog hop. I'm so glad to have found you. I am too on a weight loss journey. My goal is to be back to my wedding weight. I think I was the most happy then. I realize that I am never going to be super skinny. I'm just not, its my body type. Even at my skinniest and the best eating, dancing in a ballet company almost every day I still wasn't a twig. Sigh and darn those genetics, LOL. Here's the fighting the food fight!
Rheanna @ Cammo Style Love
WOOW! 84 pounds! That is amazing!! Seems like we both have the same to lose now so let's do it together! We CAN do this!!!
I am follow you back now!
Rheanna – I am so happy to have you! I will never be super skinny either but I could certainly be healthier! I am so glad you stopped by! I am following you now too!
I am following you through the blog hop. Very nice site. Thanks