This is the first week that I shed a tear when I stepped on the scale. I am completely baffled at my inability to find my will power to do something I know how to do. Get this blasted weight off of me before it causes serious medical issues that will shorten my life, decrease the quality of it, and teach my girls that it is ok not to take care of yourself.
I stepped on the scale this morning and it read a whopping 169.9 pounds. Yes- that is 3.2 pounds MORE than last week.
I can explain it away with the fact that my husband was here all week and we went out to eat a lot. I can say that I drank a 6 pack of Mike’s Hard Lemonade last night and ate a ton of cheese dip, thus causing a bad read this morning. I can excuse it away easily.
Or I can get real and just admit that it is easier to stick with bad habits than it is to do what I know how to do and get this fat off of my body.
I have people doing this with me, for Heaven’s sake, and I feel that my failure resonates to them. I am angry, sad, and frustrated with myself and my – let’s be honest – laziness.
Losing weight is not hard. The mind games I play with myself are.
So, I have 2 choices with my latest failure. I can quit 4 weeks into my 52 week challenge, acknowledging that if I don’t get my chit together NOW, I will never lose it. OR, I can take this week by it’s neck, shake it with all my might and scream from the rooftops – YOU WILL NOT WIN!
And that is the stance I am taking. Forget you, bad week, you will not take me over and ruin my self esteem, image, and determination that I have bubbling deep within!
So, my goal this week is to get honest! Admit to myself that I am failing because I am making myself fail and make a change.
I apologize for not being a better role model, I know many of you had a wonderful week. I promise, to you, me, and my girls, that this week will be a lot better than last!
Happy New Year!
We CAN Do this!!!!
hey, just cuz you had a moment doesn't mean you're not going to be successful! little steps!! I'll join you :)
You CAN do it!! The fact that you feel so passionate about it says so much and you can use that energy to your advantage. I'm looking forward to reading how you get on!
XxX
I know it can be a hard thing to do but you can do it! I need to start watching what I eat and start exercising. Wishing you lots of luck on losing weight this 2011.
Thank you guys! I have to do this. Not only for my body, but for my mind! Gone are the lazy days of hoping if I change one thing, it will melt off!
hi , what plan are you following? i highly recommened the Harcome Diet, its fab, only one that worked for me. Although i dont have kids, I kinda see how your feeling, its just a constant battle :( ,chin up and keep up your efforts!x
I am not following a plan, per say. I know what needs to be done from my WW days and I just need to do it. I am setting a goal every week and trying to maintain the previous goals. But, I may be looking soon! LOL
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Happy New Year!
Hey there Lori,
I am still so impressed that you are willing to put real #'s out there. Kudos! And hell, it's the week between Christmas and New Year's. 3lbs? That's all? Pshaw – good going for keeping the gain so low!! :D
I am one of those doing this with you and must admit to eating an ENTIRE caramel popcorn from Target last night. I hit their 75% off sale, so it was only $1. I should have known better than to buy it – even if it is a steal – because I have NO will power and KNEW I'd eat it. Ugh.
Well, Sunday is my scale day, so I'll let you know the damage, but I'm hoping my cold made up for it earlier in the week. Granted that meant my butt was on the couch all week too…
*sigh* this is why we've set a year, right?!
Thank you again!
Daria Mom in Management
You are so awesome, Daria! And yes- this is why we did this. As a way to guide and support each other along the way! Let me know how the week went – I would have eaten the whole thing too!!!
Lori~Forget about this week! I fully support your weight loss, and mine is going to start this week, but I also have come to realize that I want a life, too. I am not going to beat myself up anymore about my weight. I am going to take the tools that I know work (portion control, healthy greens, protein, exercise) and put them to use but I understand that every week is not going to be perfect.
You can do this! Don't beat yourself up. The great thing about this weight loss journey is that if you get a little off track, you can get right back on it. You didn't blow the whole thing!
I'll be reading and following along!
April@Party of Five
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I'm here joining you too. So much of what you write is exactly how I feel, especially the lack of sleep as a big factor in not being able to lose. Here's to wishing us both success on this endeavor!
YEA CHANDRA!!! WELCOME and I am so happy to have you!!!