Last night, my parents told me that my Grandma is suddenly very ill with pancreatic cancer and may only make it another 2 months. If that. Hospice is being called in, she is being made comfortable and, just like that, my last Grandparent and my girls only Great- Grandparent will go to meet her maker.
I sat stunned, unable to comprehend the news. My Grandma is strong. The backbone of my Father’s family. The matriarch with the beaming smile, the delicate laugh, and the twinkling eyes. It is hard to imagine her weak and unable to function like she likes to. I kept saying, “But we just saw her and she was fine!”
They kept saying, “I know.”
She really was just here. Not six weeks ago. She’d flown in from California, stayed a week with my parents, and traveled four hours in one day to come see me and my girls. She wanted a McRib sandwich for lunch and reveled in it’s greasy goodness – according to her! She sang with my girls, hugged them, played games with them, and smiled the entire time she was here. She talked of her bowling league, which she was very active in, her life in California, and, aside from some achy joints and ears that could not hear as well, she seemed OK to me. Happy and calm. With a lot left to do.
When my husband and I were discussing the suddenness of her diagnosis last night, we wondered how we got to be this age. With our third family loss looming in less than six months, Tony’s father, his Uncle, and now my Grandma, it seems that life is flowing way too fast, people are leaving way too soon, and we are too young to see them go. And we certainly are too young to be explaining to our children that their beloved family members are leaving to go live with Jesus. I am still just a girl, after all, playing cards and telling her all of my adventures. Not paying close enough attention to hers.
But, I suppose, we are there. And learning the hard way that time is fleeting, lives are too short, and there are never enough words to express regrets… and love.
I am sorry to hear that! I lost both of my grandparents and i miss them sooooo much so i know how it feels:(
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Thank you. Your sons seem to be as close as my girls! Very handsome!
I lost my grandmother to lung cancer 3 months ago so I know what you are going through. Make sure you get the kids to see her one more time before she gets really sick. It was well worth it for my family.
Hi A – I wish I could. I live in TX and she lives in CA. There is no way we can get up there before she goes. We are just glad we got to see her this last October.
I am so sorry for your loss :(
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Oh I am so sorry.
SO sorry to hear that. Pancreatic cancer is bad news. Glad you were able to enjoy some time with her recently.
So sorry to hear about that. My Grma was diagnosed with brain cancer 1 yr ago today after falling. I understand where you are coming from with this. Today is a hard day for me for this reason. Glad you were able to spend time with her.
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My neighbor was just diagnosed last month w/ pancreatic cancer and told she has about 6 weeks. My heart is broken, I love this woman and am not ready to lose her.
It is an awful diagnosis. ((HUGS))
I'm so sorry. I know you will treasure the memories shared with your girls. Love & Hugs.
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Praying for your grandma. My husbands grandma passed away from pancreatic cancer in 2004. It was as sudden as yours. She found out Feb 2004 and passed away at the end of March 2004. It was horrible. She changed so much in a matter of days. Praying for peace for your grandma and your family. If you ever need to talk you can email me. sarah@lovingmylifeblog.com. I am following you back. :)
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I don't have the right words, but I'm thinking of you in this difficult time.
I think I would want to be just like your grandma. Strong and vibrant til the very end.
I am very sorry to hear about your grandma.
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I sorry about your Grandma Lori. Ageing is so relentless. Mine is 95 and we all get lulled into the feeling that she will live forever…but we all know that won't happen. Sending you hugs and thoughts.
WOW- 95! That is fantastic. My Dh's Grandfather was 96, never went to the Dr, never needed glasses, never took a pill and boom – in one week went from walking his dog to gone. Life is amazing that way. Thank you for your king words, hon!
My grandfather died of pancreatic cancer.
He was in his 70's. I never seen such a strong man look cancer in the face and not be able to take it on. We also had Hospice and they were great. Its a very sad thing to deal with, remember the good memories, cause as the cancer gets worse, its not very easy to deal with.
Take Care.
Shannon – I am sorry you had to watch that. We watched my husband's father pass with bone cancer. It is an image hard to erase in our minds. My Grandma lives in CA and we in TX, so my last memories of her will be as a healthy lady. I think I prefer that now. Thank you and (((HUGS)))
I am very sorry to hear about your grandma. I am especially close with my grandparents and was devastated when my grandfather passed away 4 yrs ago. I too could not believe I was at the age were my loved ones were passing. I still believe I am a kid and my grandparents will live forever…and I guess in some way both are true. Sending you thoughts and hugs and a lot of tissues.
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Sorry to read about your Grandma and sending her prayers, blessings and healing light… I will hold all of you in prayer too.
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Anytime a loved one dies or is going to die it way too soon! I took a weekend trip with my family to where my Grandmother lived. This was the first time I have stepped in to her house since she died 5 years ago. For the most part I held up because I was so distracted by my 4 kids. We had the kids packed up and about to leave and needed to go back to make sure we didn't leave anything behind and then the silence hit me. I really started to miss her. I could almost hear her voice and feel her there. I really miss her! Praying for you through this difficult time! ((HUGS)) Laura G.
so sorry to hear that. Be jealous for her- it sounds as though she's led a full happy life and now she gets to go to an even better life. :-) Prayers for you.
I'm sorry about your Grandma Lori! What a shock. :(
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